7 months later, more of the same only less so

HI again. I've neglected this blog for two reasons: no one seemed to be reading it, and I didn't have much more to say - at the time.

I'm now on insulin, as the drugs just stopped working after about 10 years after my diagnosis - apparently, this is predictable. My weight went up to 290 and I'm really discouraged. My H1AC isn't too bad, 7.3, and other nos. are fine too. But I'm just too fat, it's not me and I hate it. Insulin makes it a bit harder to lose weight, and I need all the help I can get on that score. The needles are a nuisance, the insulin is expensive, the shots hurt sometimes, and I'm weary of it already. It's limiting too, because you have to plan ahead with the shots and drugs - yeah, I still take a bunch of drugs.

I'm in a line, supposedly, for gastric bypass paid for by OHIP, but I have no idea if I'll qualify or how long it'll take to get to the operation. I call it "drastic bypass" because it would drastically change my life. I live to eat. That must change. My hope is that the bypass will make compliance "easier" because it'll hurt a lot if I screw up.

I've started a program at a local weight loss place, Metabolic Centre, which is geared to type 2 diabetics, or so they say - haven't seen much evidence of that yet. My hope was to get in a group of peers so my competitive genes would give me some push. I'll be on a 30/20/10 gram diet of carbs, proteins and fat, respectively, 5 meals a day, 300 kcal a piece. I have little willpower, but some competitive spirit.

Christ, a silver bullet would be nice!